My last post was in what, February. But it feels like its been forever since I last posted anything here, yet nothing seems to have changed. I am unable to see what lies ahead, I have no idea where I want to go, so I wander...
And then I reach somewhere, I don't know where, but it doesn't matter, I continue moving. Every location is an intersection of infinite paths, the signboards are of no use when you have no destination.
Why am I rambling ? Heck, I don't know. If you want to know what my favourite phrase is, I can tell you for sure that its 'I don't know'. Come on, you have to agree that it is a great phrase, you can use it to answer anything, and no one can say that its wrong. "Describe the function of the opamp circuit shown below - I don't know", "Yo, where you want to go for dinner bro ? - I don't know", "What's the point of life ? - I don't know". See, if you think about it, it can even be used as a guiding principle of your life.
So actually, I just finished my exams. As usual, post-exam blues are starting to get to me. Ah, there, I finally said it, it took me three paragraphs before I finally figured out why I started typing this. Yes, its to tell the whole world that I'm depressed, I feel so much better now. I could probably get some sleep done now.
Why is life so depressing ? I don't know. Don't ask me.
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Reminiscence #1
So, when we first got into standard one, there was this subject called seni right ? We had to make art, draw stuff. In kindergarten, the only art I had to do was probably colouring, now that I had to draw, and draw according to a given subject, the task was overwhelming for me. The only sensible thing to do in this case was to find help, so I went to my dad for help.Then my dad taught me how to draw stick figures. My art teacher was not amused. After that, I stopped doing those art homework. Come to think of it, that teacher lacked artistic vision, look at how popular those stick figure flash animations and gifs are these days.
That was just the beginning, when I reached standard two, art teachers expected their homework to be done. The horror. But those are stories for another day...
That was just the beginning, when I reached standard two, art teachers expected their homework to be done. The horror. But those are stories for another day...
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Personality Quiz Time !
People love these. Now, here are some interesting ones, and my results ! Behold !
So, I'm not antisocial or anything, just very socially awkward and very highly avoidant, with some tinge of paranoia. And before I go seek out a friendly neighbourhood psychiatrist, another interesting quiz..
Seems like I'm running out of creative juice these days, can't write anything decent, can't shoot anything decent...
This post was brought to you by Shandy, now with added incompetency and mediocrity. Best served chilled.
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid Disorder: | High |
| Schizoid Disorder: | Low |
| Schizotypal Disorder: | High |
| Antisocial Disorder: | Low |
| Borderline Disorder: | Low |
| Histrionic Disorder: | High |
| Narcissistic Disorder: | Moderate |
| Avoidant Disorder: | Very High |
| Dependent Disorder: | Moderate |
| Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: | Moderate |
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So, I'm not antisocial or anything, just very socially awkward and very highly avoidant, with some tinge of paranoia. And before I go seek out a friendly neighbourhood psychiatrist, another interesting quiz..
 | Shengs took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! ""Longs for tenderness and for a feeling of accepta..."
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Seems like I'm running out of creative juice these days, can't write anything decent, can't shoot anything decent...
This post was brought to you by Shandy, now with added incompetency and mediocrity. Best served chilled.
Monday, October 26, 2009
I Had A Dream
I came back to my room from a one hour morning lecture, set my alarm to 11:15am then collapsed on my bed. Then, the bizarre occurred...
11:15am, my alarm rang, I looked at the time, then pushed that all so satisfying snooze button and went back to sleep.
11:20am, alarm rang again, this time, through reflex I hit the snooze button again, and thought no more about it.
11:25am, alarm rang again, this time I decided it was about time I woke up, with great reluctance I hit the stop button. I sat up on my bed, closed my eyes, and thought that it wouldn't hurt to sleep a few more minutes, then went back to sleep.
At some unknown time, I knew that I had overslept, the line of thought that went through my mind in those few seconds were something like this:
"You should just continue to sleep, its just a one hour physics lecture anyway, read the notes by yourself, you won't get to learn much if you reach there late anyway."
"No, if you do that you would set a precedence to miss more lectures, and you would never find time to read through the notes, just go, wake up."
"Sigh, if only I hadn't pressed that stop button, things would've been much easier..."
And then I woke up. Grabbed my clock to have a look, 10:36am.
Was it a dream ? Did my half-conscious mind and deep regret just combined to present me a little glimpse of what I am capable of ? Did I just subconsciously unlocked my talents for time travelling ? Could this be the prelude to much bigger events that are about to come ?
11:15am, my alarm rang, I looked at the time, then pushed that all so satisfying snooze button and went back to sleep.
11:20am, alarm rang again, this time, through reflex I hit the snooze button again, and thought no more about it.
11:25am, alarm rang again, this time I decided it was about time I woke up, with great reluctance I hit the stop button. I sat up on my bed, closed my eyes, and thought that it wouldn't hurt to sleep a few more minutes, then went back to sleep.
At some unknown time, I knew that I had overslept, the line of thought that went through my mind in those few seconds were something like this:
"You should just continue to sleep, its just a one hour physics lecture anyway, read the notes by yourself, you won't get to learn much if you reach there late anyway."
"No, if you do that you would set a precedence to miss more lectures, and you would never find time to read through the notes, just go, wake up."
"Sigh, if only I hadn't pressed that stop button, things would've been much easier..."
And then I woke up. Grabbed my clock to have a look, 10:36am.
Was it a dream ? Did my half-conscious mind and deep regret just combined to present me a little glimpse of what I am capable of ? Did I just subconsciously unlocked my talents for time travelling ? Could this be the prelude to much bigger events that are about to come ?
Sunday, October 18, 2009
A Short Message
Dear readers,
I regret deeply that, due to foreseen circumstances, I did not update my blog for quite some time. But just to let you know, I've been working on a draft of a story, too bad that would not be out for public scrutiny anytime soon, though I hope to get it done as soon as possible, don't expect much, my laziness has never failed me yet.
Now, I'm just posting this for the sake of posting something, but I sincerely hope you've enjoyed this short post, which is as usual, meaningless, yet full of thought.
Lastly, whatever you're doing, wherever you are, may good fortunes always be with you. And when you're feeling gloomy, do come and let this blog cheer you up =)
With love,
Shandy.
P/S: I write whatever I want. After all, this is my blog, you're not obligated to read it, kthxtata. Just felt like writing something. Kay really bye now. Bye.
I regret deeply that, due to foreseen circumstances, I did not update my blog for quite some time. But just to let you know, I've been working on a draft of a story, too bad that would not be out for public scrutiny anytime soon, though I hope to get it done as soon as possible, don't expect much, my laziness has never failed me yet.
Now, I'm just posting this for the sake of posting something, but I sincerely hope you've enjoyed this short post, which is as usual, meaningless, yet full of thought.
Lastly, whatever you're doing, wherever you are, may good fortunes always be with you. And when you're feeling gloomy, do come and let this blog cheer you up =)
With love,
Shandy.
P/S: I write whatever I want. After all, this is my blog, you're not obligated to read it, kthxtata. Just felt like writing something. Kay really bye now. Bye.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Lied
Dear Readers,
If I told you I don't need you, I lied.
But if I told you I miss you, I lied too.
When I say I think I'm useless, I'm not lying.
When I say you have so many better qualities than me, I'm not lying too.
If I told you I'm just a cold blooded emotionless person. I lied.
But I'm never a good liar, when I lie, it's as if I'm telling you I never lie.
I'd say I like what I'm writing, but I'd be lying.
I'd say I think I used too many Is, and I wouldn't be lying.
And when I write here that I'm writing this because I have nothing better to do, I'd be damned if I say I did not lie.
And if I say I don't have a whole lot of tutorials to do. You know what.
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Edited:
"How you know ? Maybe he bluff you ?" - Collins Santha
If I told you I don't need you, I lied.
But if I told you I miss you, I lied too.
When I say I think I'm useless, I'm not lying.
When I say you have so many better qualities than me, I'm not lying too.
If I told you I'm just a cold blooded emotionless person. I lied.
But I'm never a good liar, when I lie, it's as if I'm telling you I never lie.
I'd say I like what I'm writing, but I'd be lying.
I'd say I think I used too many Is, and I wouldn't be lying.
And when I write here that I'm writing this because I have nothing better to do, I'd be damned if I say I did not lie.
And if I say I don't have a whole lot of tutorials to do. You know what.
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Edited:
"How you know ? Maybe he bluff you ?" - Collins Santha
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